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Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Troubled thoughts and broken hearts….

I am writing this with so many thoughts and emotions going thru me right now…. It is very hard to explain how I feel therefore the lack of posts.  I read other posts and find myself experiencing some of the same things as them but yet it is so hard for me to get out on paper! 

On one hand I am saddened; it seems there is so much terminal sickness going on around me.  People close to me battling cancer, children battling cancer that I knew their parents years ago, cancer scares to close family members and the list goes on.  I can’t even turn on the news anymore without being sickened.  Our country is in so much turmoil.  So much violence and hatred.  All you read about is murder, vandalism, rape, abuse, etc… and it seems to be the kids!  Not that those situations happening to adults is right, I don’t think that at all but it seems all I am hearing is kids.  I heard something this past weekend that in my opinion I had no business hearing but I can’t change the fact that I heard it.  It sickened me deeply and ever since I have been battling it.  I will have images, thoughts, etc… pop up in my head all day long.  I know this is sounding really bad and I am sorry, I don’t know how else to write about it and I don’t want to go into detail.  I just need to get rid of it and figured I would release here.  I know it is the devil beating me up and I rebuke him everyday in THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST!  But then I got to thinking today, maybe there is a message in all of this. 

I was listening to a Christian radio station earlier this week when I was in the car and they had the wife of a singer on the group Selah on there talking about their familie’s experience recently with loosing their newborn.  They had 3 other children and sometime in the middle of her pregnancy the ultrasound detected major problems.  While others would have terminated the pregnancy right then and there, they chose for her to carry the baby to term.  I did not catch what the problems were but the baby died 2 hours after she was born.  This woman had created a blog during that time, from the time they found out thru the whole ordeal.  That way friends and family could stay updated without them having to repeat everything so much.  During this broadcast, the DJ read a blurp from the book this lady wrote titled I Will Carry You; The Sacred Dance of Grief and Joy.  It was quoted from the blog that she had wrote and in it she was saying that basically while we go thru trials and such here on this earth, we are disappointed, hurt, scared, etc and that during this difficult time she clung to God and His Scriptures, not because they took the pain and hurt away, not because it made the trials easier but because they gave her comfort and peace.  And then she went on to say that GOD IS ENOUGH.  That phrase has stuck with me all week.  When I just stop and think about it, it is so true!  He truly is enough, but we have to let Him be which is where we as humans mess up so much!  The scripture reads in Psalm 46:10-11, “Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, and I will be exalted in the earth. The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah”  This speaks volumes to me right now.

I was also reading the blog of the little 5 year old boy I know (used to go to church with his father) that is battling a horrible cancer in the last stage.  The mother wrote the blog entry for today and here is a little blurp from it that made me think.

“One of the things that was grieving me the most was time wasted.  Guilt plagued me, I wish I would've spent more time playing with him, reading to him, riding bikes, getting dirty, and I could go on and on.  I know all you busy mom's know what I mean.  There's always so much on the "to do" list every day, and life seems to rush by.  Now I have a gift, its called "Time Redemption".  God is helping me redeem the time with my son.  He is connected to an IV 24/7 except for shower time, which I help him with, so I am there, hardly 2 feet away from him most of the day and all of the night.  Thanking God for this precious gift.”

Do I put having a neat house, dished done, TV, gardening, etc... in place of cherishing time with my children?  I know there are parts of our day that we need to do but speaking for myself, I am sure I could rearrange some things to spend a little more time with my precious gifts!  Just something to think and chew on.

I know He truly is God and He is very much on the Throne.  I know He is in complete control (if I let Him).  If there is a message for me in all of this, I pray that I heed His call and listen.  I just know right now, my heart is breaking.  The thought of anyone, let alone children, hurting deeply upsets me.  And the fact that there is so much of it in this world every day is overwhelming.

God Bless.

Friday, January 14, 2011

The Weekend and Dessert

Yay!!!!!!!  Its Friday! And the best part?????  I have a 3 day weekend!  Can't wait even though it will be busy, Monday I have no plans though and hopefully will stay that way!

I have decided on a dessert for tonights menu, I think I am going to make Hot Fudge/ Chocolate Lava Cake with Ice Cream.  It just sounds really good to me and I grew up with Grandma making it.  Haven't had it in a long time and it is perfect for the cold nights!  I am excited about tonight.  We haven't had company in a while so it was fun cleaning the house this week getting it "spotless" as Corbyn put it when asked how clean his room was.... LOL, that kid cracks me up but I must say, his room was impressive!

I also am excited b/c I went to Walmart at lunch today and got a new area rug for the living room.  I was getting a few things and saw a display in the middle of the isle for $20.00!  It is 5X8 feet and is purple an gray striped.  It is beautiful!  And will go perfect in our living room, our exact colors of that room!  I can't wait to get home and get it laid down.  When we get our camera back (left it at our in-laws) I will get a picture and try and post.  I am having trouble uploading pics to this blog for some reason but we will see.

Anyway, that is about it!  My 28th birthday is approaching later this month and have been thinking a lot about what I really want for my birthday.  True, there is a lot of "material" things that would be nice to have but if I could have anything, what do I want?  I haven't completly decided but a day to myself sounds heavenly!  Or even a day/evening with just me and the hubby.... The last couple months have been such caos that a day of "down" time sounds perfect.  So we will see, if my birthday wish comes true.....   :)  

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Random Thoughts…

I don’t have an actual topic today, just some random thoughts I thought I would share.  I want to post at least once a week to keep me in the groove but this week nothing is coming to mind. So here is a sneak peak to what is going thru my mind   J

This morning was the 2nd day that we woke up and did breakfast together as a family!  As mentioned in my previous post, we are doing this every week on Wednesday to increase our “family” time.  It has been lovely!  Great way to start the day!  This morning I made from scratch, Butterscotch Oatmeal.  Yum!  The recipie is as follows:

2 eggs beaten
3.5 cups of milk
1 cup brown sugar
1 tsp salt

Stir constantly until it starts to boil.

Add 2 cups of quick oats and stir again till it starts to boil again.

Turn heat off, add 1/3 cup of butter, put lid on pot and let sit 5 min.  Serve warm with milk.  Yum!!!!!  This is such a treat on a cold snowy morning like we had today.

I also put some homemade beef vegetable soup in the crock pot last night while I was waiting for our yummy supper (pork chops, herbed potatoes, corn) to get done.  This morning I put it on low and we should have a hot yummy meal when we get home tonight!  Tomorrow is our designated “family game” night.  I am hoping we get to play at least one game but we are also having company Friday night for supper and the evening and there will be lots of clean up and preparing that needs done by all tomorrow as well.  Here is my mental list:

Corbyn clean his room (currently not too bad, just some pick up)
Sweep stairs and all hardwood floors (our whole main level!)
Sweep living room rug and straighten up toys
Dust
Clean bathroom
Clean Kitchen (will sweep but not mop.  With all the snow we have, it is pointless since this is the first room you walk into from outside)
Prepare Meal:
            Chicken Alfredo
            Olive Garden Salad
            Yankee Bread Sticks
            Dessert – haven’t decided what…. Will accept suggestions!!!!!
I wanted to keep the meal simple since we both work Friday, but company is not coming till 7ish so I think this is doable!

This Saturday we have our Final Christmas for 2010!!!!!!!!  Yay!  I am looking forward to it b/c we didn’t have this gathering last year but I am also ready to put the holidays behind me!

Lastly, This has been a really good week!  My Monday was an awesome day and it has been a long time since I have been able to say that about a Monday!  I won’t go into details but I found out I was able to be a “tool” to accomplish something big.  I didn’t realize that is what I was doing at the time and am not saying this to lift me up but for God’s Glory only!!!!!  I know He is God and He is on the Throne but He still seems to amaze me the way He works things out sometimes!  He truly is an ON TIME GOD, EVERY TIME!  There was also another situation that happened Monday that gave me Hope.  I know things are not happening right this second the way I want them to but I can see God is doing an awesome work and it is exciting to me to see how everything will work out in the end!  Yesterday was a good day as well!  I got both kids after work and went home, we did homework without fussing, fed Joey (our dog) without fussing, piano practice without fussing (these are normally things we complain about every evening, even though we know we do them every day!).  I was able to sweep some floors, help with homework and reading, watch my son practice piano (it amazes me that a 7 year old knows so much already!) and got the fire going before hubby came home.  I also was able to get the kitchen cleaned up before bed which is a rare occasion anymore with everything else we have before bed.

Whew!  So sorry for the long post!  Just a look at what has been going on inside my world recently!  God Bless and hope you all have good week!  As always, comments are welcome!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Family

I can’t explain it but over the last month or so I have had this urgency for family.  Family in general but specifically my immediate family.  Hubby and I have talked and starting this week we are incorporating more family time into our schedules.  Some of the things are as follows:

Ø     Breakfast together as a family on Wednesdays
Ø     Game/Family night 1 day a week – where we do not turn the TV on at all.  We will have supper, clean up and then play games together or do activities together as a family.
Ø     We also want to incorporate family devotions into our schedules. We haven’t came up with anything yet but on top of our own studying, we feel it is important to instill as much of the Word in our children as possible without overwhelming them. Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.  Poverbs 22:6 Obviously Jocelyn is a little young but if we start now, she will be a custom to it.  She already knows we pray before we eat and holds her hands out and closes her eyes.  She knows at church when we pray she is supposed to bow her head and close her eyes and she does her best.  It is cute but so important!
Ø     And a big one….. START SAYING NO!!!!!   We are so busy anymore and it takes so much time away from us as a family.  I am tired of being too busy to be a family if that makes sense.  Believe it or not, I think this is going to be a hard one.  It is so easy to say yes to things but for some reason, I feel so guilty saying no.  But I feel it is very important in order for us to be close as a family.

Like I said earlier, I am not sure of this urgency but it has been on me a lot and it is important for me to obey that voice.  I am excited to see the changes in us and to see what the outcomes will be!

Do you have any ideas that would help achieve this or are there things you currently do on a daily/weekly basis to ensure family time and coming together?  Any and all thoughts or questions are welcomed!

I am currently working on a post I hope to have up shortly.  We had a really good message last night at church about our spiritual houses and what our foundation is, what is the furnishings that is occupying our rooms?  Are we keeping it clean and clutter free?  Anyway, I really enjoyed it and am studying some things out but will be posting my thoughts and findings on this matter.

God Bless!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Welcome 2011!!!!!

It is with mixed emotion that I am writing this. On one hand it is hard to think 2010 is gone!  Where does the time go!?  But at the same time I am excited to see what 2011 holds.  When I reflect over 2010, there are lots of memories, happy moments, sad moments, lots of busy moments, things I would change and things I would do the same.  Through it all the biggest thing that 2010 has taught me is I MUST completely look to and rely on JESUS CHRIST for help, answers, strength, wisdom, peace, happiness, love and understanding. Psa 121:1-2  No matter what the good intentions are, man will always let you down in one way or another but God is always there, on time, every time, whenever we need Him!  I can honestly say I learned this lesson the hard way this year but am very thankful because I am not sure I would have realized the seriousness of this if I wouldn’t have had to go thru the things I went thru.  I feel very blessed starting off this year.  I have lots of dreams and aspirations but most of all want the Lord’s will and leading in my life and am excited to see where He wants to take me this year.  Most of all I want 1/1/2012 to come and I can say I am deeper, stronger and wiser in the Lord.  I don’t want to be where I am today or take any steps back but want to move forward for there is a prize to obtain! 1 Cor 9:24; Phl 3:14 Oh Hallelujah!  Some of the things that come to mind that I can do to make sure I reach that goal is to do more studying, reading, fasting, spend more time in my “prayer closet”(1 Th 5:17)….

Hope each of you have a wonderful and blessed day and year!  Feel free to leave comments or let me know what you are anticipating for 2011!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

2010 coming to a close...

Hard to believe it is that time of year again.  Time seems to just zip by anymore.  I will try and run thru our year... I should keep a notebook throughout the year so I can look back and remember!

January - Andy's Papaw Larry passed away after some complications in the hospital.  Not the greatest way to start off the year... Also, my sister started dating an old acquaintance that lives in Washington state!  (my birthday was the 27th!)  My sisters husband got out of the Marines.

February - Happy birthday to my sister and niece, it was were I first met my brother in law's new girlfriend.  He did very well! :)  We also had a late Christmas gathering this month and Jocelyn was diagnosed with RSV.  My youngest sis moved to AZ with her husband.

March - Happy Anniversary to us!  8 years and going strong!  We also started looking into replacing our roof which needed done badly.

April - Made the down payment for the roof to be put on in June, my little sis and her husband moved back home from AZ.  I also went back to part time at the end of the month.

May - Happy birthday to my dad and brother!  Also had my sister's baby shower and started planning for youth camp in June.  Also attended the Old German Baptist Annual Meeting to see lots of old family and friends I haven't seen in years!

June - Happy Birthday to my sister , son and my hubby turned 30!  We had youth camp as well and started preparing for our General Convocation.  Our roof was finally put on and we had approx 10 large trees taken down on our property.  My sister got engaged!  Also ended up switching babysitters


July - Happy birthday to my niece, nephew and sister in law and brother in law!  We had General Convocation and started preparing for Jocelyn's 1st birthday.  Also my niece Abigail Jane was born!

August - Happy 1st birthday to my daughter!  We had her party which was a big hit.  Also started all the back to school stuff.

Sept - My dad and brothers and sisters and spouses all went camping for a weekend before my sister moved to Washington.

October - not much happened really.  Happy birthday to my niece!  I also went back to full time to help out while a co-worker goes thru chemo.

November - Happy birthday to my niece and brother in law and brother.  Had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday and had a couple bridal showers for my sister.  Also my brother and soon to be brother in law got to come home early from WA.

December - Happy birthday to my mother!  Also the big day for by sister and her now hubby.  It also started our never ending Christmas's!


Whew! What a year!  I am sure I left some things out but that is the gist of it.  Am very thankful for everything I have, everything God has done and looking forward to another year of His wonderful blessings!

Happy New Year everyone!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

The Reason for the Season

This has been on my heart a lot lately as it should be and I have read it a couple of times recently so just wanted to share.

Let me know your thoughts or what this speaks to you if you wish.  I will highlight the scriptures that keep jumping out at me that I am chewing on.

Merry Christmas!

Luke 1:5-2:21 (King James Version)


 5THERE was in the days of Herod, the king of Judaea, a certain priest named Zacharias, of the course of Abia: and his wife was of the daughters of Aaron, and her name was Elisabeth.
 6And they were both righteous before God, walking in all the commandments and ordinances of the Lord blameless.
 7And they had no child, because that Elisabeth was barren, and they both were now well stricken in years.
 8And it came to pass, that while he executed the priest's office before God in the order of his course,
 9According to the custom of the priest's office, his lot was to burn incense when he went into the temple of the Lord.
 10And the whole multitude of the people were praying without at the time of incense.
 11And there appeared unto him an angel of the Lord standing on the right side of the altar of incense.
 12And when Zacharias saw him, he was troubled, and fear fell upon him.
 13But the angel said unto him, Fear not, Zacharias: for thy prayer is heard; and thy wife Elisabeth shall bear thee a son, and thou shalt call his name John.
 14And thou shalt have joy and gladness; and many shall rejoice at his birth.
 15For he shall be great in the sight of the Lord, and shall drink neither wine nor strong drink; and he shall be filled with the Holy Ghost, even from his mother's womb.
 16And many of the children of Israel shall he turn to the Lord their God.
 17And he shall go before him in the spirit and power of Elias, to turn the hearts of the fathers to the children, and the disobedient to the wisdom of the just; to make ready a people prepared for the Lord.
 18And Zacharias said unto the angel, Whereby shall I know this? for I am an old man, and my wife well stricken in years.
 19And the angel answering said unto him, I am Gabriel, that stand in the presence of God; and am sent to speak unto thee, and to shew thee these glad tidings.
 20And, behold, thou shalt be dumb, and not able to speak, until the day that these things shall be performed, because thou believest not my words, which shall be fulfilled in their season.
 21And the people waited for Zacharias, and marvelled that he tarried so long in the temple.
 22And when he came out, he could not speak unto them: and they perceived that he had seen a vision in the temple: for he beckoned unto them, and remained speechless.
 23And it came to pass, that, as soon as the days of his ministration were accomplished, he departed to his own house.
 24And after those days his wife Elisabeth conceived, and hid herself five months, saying,
 25Thus hath the Lord dealt with me in the days wherein he looked on me, to take away my reproach among men.
 26And in the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent from God unto a city of Galilee, named Nazareth,
 27To a virgin espoused to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David; and the virgin's name was Mary.
 28And the angel came in unto her, and said, Hail, thou that art highly favoured, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women.
 29And when she saw him, she was troubled at his saying, and cast in her mind what manner of salutation this should be.
 30And the angel said unto her, Fear not, Mary: for thou hast found favour with God.
 31And, behold, thou shalt conceive in thy womb, and bring forth a son, and shalt call his name JESUS.
 32He shall be great, and shall be called the Son of the Highest: and the Lord God shall give unto him the throne of his father David:
 33And he shall reign over the house of Jacob for ever; and of his kingdom there shall be no end.
 34Then said Mary unto the angel, How shall this be, seeing I know not a man?
 35And the angel answered and said unto her, The Holy Ghost shall come upon thee, and the power of the Highest shall overshadow thee: therefore also that holy thing which shall be born of thee shall be called the Son of God.
 36And, behold, thy cousin Elisabeth, she hath also conceived a son in her old age: and this is the sixth month with her, who was called barren.
 37For with God nothing shall be impossible.
 38And Mary said, Behold the handmaid of the Lord; be it unto me according to thy word. And the angel departed from her.
 39And Mary arose in those days, and went into the hill country with haste, into a city of Juda;
 40And entered into the house of Zacharias, and saluted Elisabeth.
 41And it came to pass, that, when Elisabeth heard the salutation of Mary, the babe leaped in her womb; and Elisabeth was filled with the Holy Ghost:
 42And she spake out with a loud voice, and said, Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb.
 43And whence is this to me, that the mother of my Lord should come to me?
 44For, lo, as soon as the voice of thy salutation sounded in mine ears, the babe leaped in my womb for joy.
 45And blessed is she that believed: for there shall be a performance of those things which were told her from the Lord.
 46And Mary said, My soul doth magnify the Lord,
 47And my spirit hath rejoiced in God my Saviour.
 48For he hath regarded the low estate of his handmaiden: for, behold, from henceforth all generations shall call me blessed.
 49For he that is mighty hath done to me great things; and holy is his name.
 50And his mercy is on them that fear him from generation to generation.
 51He hath shewed strength with his arm; he hath scattered the proud in the imagination of their hearts.
 52He hath put down the mighty from their seats, and exalted them of low degree.
 53He hath filled the hungry with good things; and the rich he hath sent empty away.
 54He hath helped his servant Israel, in remembrance of his mercy;
 55As he spake to our fathers, to Abraham, and to his seed for ever.
 56And Mary abode with her about three months, and returned to her own house.
 57Now Elisabeth's full time came that she should be delivered; and she brought forth a son.
 58And her neighbours and her cousins heard how the Lord had shewed great mercy upon her; and they rejoiced with her.
 59And it came to pass, that on the eighth day they came to circumcise the child; and they called him Zacharias, after the name of his father.
 60And his mother answered and said, Not so; but he shall be called John.
 61And they said unto her, There is none of thy kindred that is called by this name.
 62And they made signs to his father, how he would have him called.
 63And he asked for a writing table, and wrote, saying, His name is John. And they marvelled all.
 64And his mouth was opened immediately, and his tongue loosed, and he spake, and praised God.
 65And fear came on all that dwelt round about them: and all these sayings were noised abroad throughout all the hill country of Judaea.
 66And all they that heard them laid them up in their hearts, saying, What manner of child shall this be! And the hand of the Lord was with him.
 67And his father Zacharias was filled with the Holy Ghost, and prophesied, saying,
 68Blessed be the Lord God of Israel; for he hath visited and redeemed his people,
 69And hath raised up an horn of salvation for us in the house of his servant David;
 70As he spake by the mouth of his holy prophets, which have been since the world began:
 71That we should be saved from our enemies, and from the hand of all that hate us;
 72To perform the mercy promised to our fathers, and to remember his holy covenant;
 73The oath which he sware to our father Abraham,
 74That he would grant unto us, that we being delivered out of the hand of our enemies might serve him without fear,
 75In holiness and righteousness before him, all the days of our life.
 76And thou, child, shalt be called the prophet of the Highest: for thou shalt go before the face of the Lord to prepare his ways;
 77To give knowledge of salvation unto his people by the remission of their sins,
 78Through the tender mercy of our God; whereby the dayspring from on high hath visited us,
 79To give light to them that sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace.
 80And the child grew, and waxed strong in spirit, and was in the deserts till the day of his shewing unto Israel.

Luke 2

 1And it came to pass in those days, that there went out a decree from Caesar Augustus that all the world should be taxed.
 2(And this taxing was first made when Cyrenius was governor of Syria.)
 3And all went to be taxed, every one into his own city.
 4And Joseph also went up from Galilee, out of the city of Nazareth, into Judaea, unto the city of David, which is called Bethlehem; (because he was of the house and lineage of David:)
 5To be taxed with Mary his espoused wife, being great with child.
 6And so it was, that, while they were there, the days were accomplished that she should be delivered.
 7And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn.
 8And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.
 9And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.
 10And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.
 11For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.
 12And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.
 13And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,
 14Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.
 15And it came to pass, as the angels were gone away from them into heaven, the shepherds said one to another, Let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see this thing which is come to pass, which the Lord hath made known unto us.
 16And they came with haste, and found Mary, and Joseph, and the babe lying in a manger.
 17And when they had seen it, they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child.
 18And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds.
 19But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.
 20And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen, as it was told unto them.
 21And when eight days were accomplished for the circumcising of the child, his name was called JESUS, which was so named of the angel before he was conceived in the womb.
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